And then it hit me...

As I'm laying in my king size bed, with one arm under one child and the other holding another child from falling off the bed, I started to get a bit "iffy" because I couldn't move.

And then... It hit me.

The one thing I've wanted to always feel in past relationships.. the one feeling that I couldn't really feel until I had my kids; to be needed.

Instead of getting upset or huffy and puffy that I can't move or get comfortable, I realized that I should be embracing this very moment.  This very exact moment where I am needed.  I remind myself daily that there are couples, women, men that would do anything for nights like these..

We (or at least I) sometimes forget what we've longed for in our pasts.  What we've searched endlessly for only to never find it.  This is what it means to view the glass half full, (half full doesn't seem too bad when you have little ones running around, right?).

I am needed day and night, literally.  We're a co-sleeping family, so mama bear duties don't stop just because it's night time.  Have I wanted a quick break from it all? Absolutely.  When I do get my break, would you like to guess what happens?  I end up missing my little monsters that make my heart oh so complete and get home as soon as I can.

It again..hit me.

If you can't beat 'em, join 'em!

This mama bear is both grateful and blessed to have what she does, that's never forgotten.